Friday, September 11, 2009
It's day 4!!!!
It's day number 4. Are you ready for it?? Not really sure what today will have in store for me. What tricks my mind will play. I did a quick post to let you know that day 3 was successful but I think I might have spoke a little too soon!! It's amazing how the mind works. Here I was strolling along thinking "Ok- I'M Ok. THEY are ok. I CAN do this." Well I went to bed last night and around 3:00 am I woke up out of a dead sleep, panicked. I certainly let my.....
get the better of me. Isn't that funny how today's inspiration word is the VERY thing I need to stop doing!?!?! Ok let me tell you what happened.
Last night right before bed our carbonminoxide detector went off -I know- strange that I would take precautions such as these ;) Anyhow not sure if it was a faulty battery or some other fume it was picking up on (cause we all woke up this morning just fine) but to be safe we opened ALL the windows in the house. Well, my subconscious obviously went into overdrive while I was sleeping and I woke up thinking....
"OH MY GOD- We left the kitchen windows open- SOMEONE could have come in and STOLEN my children while I was sleeping!!!" CRAZY right??? YEP but that didn't stop me from running to check the kids (who were sleeping like angels) and feverishly running thru out the house-not just to check the kitchen windows NOOOO of course not!
Remember I'm the one battling FEAR on a constant basis- Well after I checked EVERY window in the house and the alarm, I laid back down foolishly assuming that I'd drift right back to sleep armed with a sense of peace that everything was ok. NOPE! I laid there till 4:30 am trying desperately to go to sleep. The next 2 hours were THE WORST sleep I've ever had!!!
Anyhow, I'm on my second cup of coffee and hoping I won't fall asleep today and forget to pick the kids up from school. UMMM YA I know I'm still doing it- I'm thinking it might take a little longer than 21 days to conquer this one....
I wonder if they make a pill to stop my "Wings" from fluttering TOO much? ;)