Day 17 and 18

Well I've hit a bit of a slump. Day 16 was another one of those days that just came and went. Not very eventful, not very LIVING in the moment.

Which led to day 17- WOW! wish I could do that one over again!

Day 17 was a rough one for me. I wasn't feeling very...

I couldn't shake the blah's away. I felt restless but unmotivated. It was as if the left side of my brain was fighting with the right. I knew I had to get up, get moving, forge forward yet I couldn't. Or better put, I didn't. I knew that I was my own worst enemy. I could feel the desire inside of me to be the BEST I could. The best ME, the best MOTHER, the best WIFE but I felt like I was wearing cement shoes while walking through quick sand. Upset with myself for not being able to just DO it. I battled myself all day. It was ugly. One of those 1 step forward 2 steps back kind of days. Thank God for the hubby. I don't know what has gotten into him lately but he has found a compassion and strength that manages to keep me from going insane on days like these. He knew exactly when I needed to be left alone, or needed to talk and exactly when I just needed him to hold me. I am very thankful for that. It is the only thing that helped me survive day 17.

Anyhow, after a great nights sleep, day 18 holds possibilities of so much more!

I woke up feeling like I left the concrete shoes behind and managed to wiggle myself free from the quicksand! I feel like I am ready to..... We are headed to San Diego this afternoon to attend a "Love and Respect" conference.

This should be interesting with the hubby's A.D.D. we'll see how much info he retains! I'm kidding! (well not about the a.d.d. ) I am excited for this workshop. It should be a great experience for both of us. You know I read somewhere that you should look at your marriage like a huge snake. If you don't feed it every day, something bad WILL happen. So were off to "feed our snake" be back Sunday!